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youre right that we dont seem to really know each other very well but i feel as though weve had hundreds of microconversations that almost equal one actual conversation

like i dont feel like we arent friends or anything like that i definitely recognize your url and feel some kind of positive emotion when i look at it like i feel like i could definitely have one whole ass real conversation with you if i really wanted or if the topic was something that could allow us too see i feel like the problem is that our microconversations arent about anything thats particularly deep or interesting and thats not necessarily a bad thing it just makes it hard to actually get to know one another

but all that being said i couldnt pick you out of a crowd or anything but id definitely sit down and have a drink and a real conversation with you mostly because i feel kind of determined to do so at this point BV

i literally came from heaven so draw your own conclusions lmao

pick a card :: accepting

cath is pretty intuitive, but that doesn’t account for his lack of self-preservation. he’s usually right, and has ended up in stupid or even dangerous trouble more than once for not just turning around and getting the fuck out of there

life & philosophy :: accepting

cath absolutely believes in fate! he believes everything that’s happened so far has happened for a reason and that reason is he’s done his best to be a good person. he believes though that you can change fate, sort of in a karmatic balance way. same goes with luck :d

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♕ — What does leading a ‘good’ life mean to your muse? Are they satisfied with the choices they make? 

when it comes down to it, cath wants to exist and lead the best life he can as the best ‘person’ he can. leading a good life means helping others and learning what it means to be human so he can better fit into the life he’s been given. despite decisions having made him fall, he reasons that he’d never gotten to where he is in his life if he’d done anything differently. and overall, he’s happy, so he considers it a win.

life & philosophy :: accepting

while cath can’t exactly die by normal means, he can be essentially “discorporated” (borrowing that from another fandom) and sent back to the nevernever where he ‘came from’. he can be brought back by some extreme means, but this did nearly happen a few years ago. while he isn’t quite sure people will remember him after he “dies” (after all, who remembers their own death?) he’s concerned about being remembered as being a fallen angel, emphasis on fallen. he doesn’t want the choices he had to make to adapt to human life to define him. he’ll joke all day about being a sinful little bastard but in reality, he wants to be remembered for the good he tried to do and the compassion he originally was created and stood for.

simple n soft :: accepting

• 9. What’s a smell that reminds you of home? 

i dont have a really good sense of smell but i like the smell of apples and can actually get a good smell of them so weve always got apple scents or candles burning that smell like apples

• 10. What is something (or someone) you’re in love with? 

ok its no secret who im in love with but someTHING im in love with are all the plants and stuff that i grow cause it takes a lot of love to make them big and strong and they gotta know you care about them to thrive

• 11. Describe the memory of the last time you felt true happiness. 

literally just this morning i woke up and turned over into the perfect most comfiest spot and position and slept for another hour and let me tell you that shit is PURE bliss

simple n soft :: accepting

• 16. Where do you feel most at home? 

this is gay but wherever the people i love are is home to me

• 20. What’s the sweetest thing someone has done for you?
  

recently kay had greenhouses secretly built into our backyard before we moved into the new house and that was super fucking sweet

vday alphabet :: accepting

vday alphabet :: accepting

tarot asks :: accepting

once a mall goth always a mall goth

tarot asks :: accepting

• temperance: can you describe a strange dream you’ve had? 

i used to have this one dream where id get lost in the townhouse and keep finding rooms that didnt exist in my house and finding old shit id lost like actually im kinda pissed cause wtf i miss those things >B(

mun talks about the muse :: accepting

hardest thing about writing cath is worrying that because cath doesn’t know something, people might assume i don’t know the thing either? i know it’s dumb but >_> there u go lol

as for what i want to write w him i’m just lying in wait for the perfect time to write cath getting perma-vanished and being brought back… twiddles my thumbs….

mun talks about muse :: accepting

cath is a big dumb slutty simpleton but the thing that endears him to me so much is that he’s 10000 years old but still knows there’s things to learn

he didn’t ‘grow up’, he just came into existence one day and then when he was suddenly forced to live around humans constantly it was a slow and slippery slope learning not only english, but how to act and react to and around people. he’s still learning and he’s still growing and he likes doing these things. he genuinely enjoys learning something new and being corrected when he does something wrong because his biggest goal in life is to be “normal” and seen as a “regular person” and he can’t do that without help and guidance and i think that makes him strong af and EXTREMELY fun to write

lets get personal :: accepting

i mean apart from all the angel of death stuff i do im really good at mimicking sounds i hear almost perfectly BV